I am concerned that i have a issue with making decisions and sticking with it. I was in the process of planning a wedding and a week later i completly broke up with the person. My feelings didnt change for the person and afterwords i continued to act as if we were still in a relationship. And this has been a repeat pattern in other areas of my life as well. I will have a set decision and back down, what is the issue?
I played music my whole life. I dated my husband because he was in a band and I love music and playing music…drums, trumpet. I have danced my whole life and music has just lived inside me and kept me going through all the rough bits of youth. When we were engaged we wrote an album together. It was mostly my stuff but he wrote a couple of songs too and put his guitar and pedal steel playing on most of the songs. Our wedding favor for our guests was the CD we wrote together. It seemed like it would be the first of many albums. He also had another band with his guy friends and that one was getting popular…but we still wrote music together.
So we got married and had a baby and I stopped playing music. He didn’t seem as interested in our little band together and was going to practice with his other band a lot. They got popular then fizzled out but kept going anyway. This year will be our 10 year anniversary. We have 3 kids together and he is a good husband and a nice guy. But I have had no music. I don’t even like the music his guy band plays and he practices with them every week and leaves the family to tour with them and make albums with them every year. This would be fine if we had had a family vacation, or if I got to make some music too. But I have had 10 years of no playing music. I know that is my fault. I know I should pick up my trumpet or the guitar and just do it. I just feel like I put every second of my day info our children or my small business that I run from home. If I am not working or cleaning the house I feel like I am failing someone.
So today my kids were playing toy instruments and I went and got my trumpet from under the bed and dusted it off and played the blues with them. Granted, it sounded pretty bad but I was excited to be playing again. My husband looked at me with an awful face, shook his head and said, “stop.”
I know I shouldn’t be so sensitive but I just went to our room and locked the door and sobbed. When he came in (he used our little extra key) I told him that I thought when we got married that we were going to have a musical life together, but instead I feel like he sucked the music out of me.
I made him leave after I said that because I didn’t want to say anymore hurtful things out of anger. But I can’t stop being angry. I want to because it doesn’t help or solve anything. He is a nice guy, he made a mistake, he is sorry. But I am having a hard time shaking the resentment and most of all I can’t seem to stop crying. I never cry. I only cry when someone dies or if something horrible happens. So I don’t know why I have been crying on and off for the past 2 hours.
So , am I taking this too hard? Any thoughts, advice on how to get through this. Should I stay mad at him? Is he a jerk?
Thanks.
I have my relatives marriage nearby -
The girl is well educated., in fact studied more than boy.
The boy has studied one step less., but seem to have more years of domain exposure – -
At this juncture., the girl donot have money to support for marriage.
while the boy is well off with the money he was earning…
The girl admitted her incapacity or family incapacity during contribution of money in regards to marriage-
The boy seem okai and went forward to arranging everything i suppose -
The boy’s mother thinks there has to be some dowry that has to come from bride’s mother -
as there is some property on her name…, she want yearly income from that it seems.
Why mother of boy is meddling in the middle.., when boy even went ahead to bring -up whole marraige scenario on his own – -
I am not sure if she knows the fact that groom has spent all money.., but she dont seem to care anyway..,
but her focus is on the property of bride’s mother .. -
how could she be stifled if at all possible -
While bride’s mother father try to ignore her misadventures most of the times -
so i have a friend, shes pretty much my best friend, we hang out a lot go to the movies, dinner, all that fun ****. what im trying to find out is if she really is a true friend or if im being used. ive been hangin out with her for like 7 months, smokin pot with her, and im always doing her favors, giving her rides to school and the store or whatever, i enjoy doing them because i just love spending time with her (i guess you can say i have more than just a crush for this girl) and sometimes i feel like shes taking advantage. it has been my goal to make her my girlfriend after a month since we started to hang out and everytime i mention it she gives me the “just friends” crap. i cant accept that, i just want her so bad! and the last week we’ve been hangin out everyday, and she just broke up with her boyfriend and ive been keeping her company since and now shes forgotten all about him, was that because of me? i asked her and she said yes i helped a lot get over her ex. and shes been posting stuff on facebook sayin stuff like, “hes the reason why i smile, love is in the air, i miss him” and all these things she has said were after wed hang out, i asked her whos the lucky guy and she said oh nobody i just post things like if i were in love when im bored. should i believe that? could she be talkin about me? anyone know what this could mean?
So I recently got into a manga called the Bride of Deimos and its absolutely amazing and addicting and and all that fun stuff. The problem is that out of the 17 volumes I can only get the first 7. As far as i know the remaining 10 were never translated, even so I’m still interested in them and I can’t for the life of me find anything about them anywhere….can anyone help?
So I recently got into a manga called the Bride of Deimos and its absolutely amazing and addicting and and all that fun stuff. The problem is that out of the 17 volumes I can only get the first 7. As far as i know the remaining 10 were never translated, even so I’m still interested in them and I can’t for the life of me find anything about them anywhere….can anyone help?
So I recently got into a manga called the Bride of Deimos and its absolutely amazing and addicting and and all that fun stuff. The problem is that out of the 17 volumes I can only get the first 7. As far as i know the remaining 10 were never translated, even so I’m still interested in them and I can’t for the life of me find anything about them anywhere….can anyone help?
I want to make a mix CD for my car and the songs i already add is
Turn the page- Metallica
Afraid to shoot strangers-Iron maiden
Marooned -Pink Floyd
Feel like making love -Bad companie
Harvest-Opeth
Perfect Strangers-Deep purple
Boat on the river-Styx
Scorpion flower-Moonspell
The Idol-Wasp
Here i go again-Whitesnake
Thy raven wings-My Dying Bride
High Hopes-Pink Floyd
Daylight misery-Draconian
and some more. This is a sample of bands and songs that i like. The bottom line is that i like quitars and I know it might look weird to some of you, but anyway, it’s a CD for personal use only so let’s avoid any unnecessary irony, cose i’m not feeling particularly good today.
Your guest dress as confederates and his as union(vice versa)
Cannons at the reception.
Shoot your bouquet out of a cannon to the girls
Have the different flags as decorations
Use red white and blue flowers and decorations
I’ve been listening to bands like Escape The Fate and Black Veil Brides to death. I kinda want something new. Any good bands out there?
